Feeling cold for a Monday...

The weather was cold and damp... in addition to the freeze environment in OP section today... I was liked freezing out... * CHILLING*... Cold... ...

I missed my friends so much on yesterday night... friends... esp my hometown friends... bee ling, yutian, mei ling, wai yan, ying ying, yen tyng n etc etc... my matric friends... caroline, mai mai, kui teng, mei tey, seow hui, jia mei n etc... I missed you guys so much... some of them were graduated and started to work... some were enjoying their holidays... some were in internship... some were losing in contact... some were... ... ...

Friends.. how much do I miss you all... I hope that... you are all staying healthy and fine all the time... ... Take care... ...

Emm.. feeling weird in such a sudden today... I thought I was just thinking too further of it... soon after my last day of hospital attachment on this coming friday... the next day... saturday morning... around 4.30am.. i will be leaving m'sia... attending a 7days 6 nights Asia Pacific Pharmaceutical Symposium (APPS) in Jogjakarta, Indonesia... .. with Zakiah, Qing liang n Li Wen... ...

emm... i felt a bit worried... perhaps... thinking too much... the place is an earthquake spot... n last saturday, i saw a news from online the star reporter saying that there was unpredictable geographical change that might take place soon... ... "loll, i'm thinking so much... ..right?" ... ...

Dont forecast... ... perhaps... ... ... sometimes... life is a fate... ... but... thinking positively and looking forward are what should I be having right now.. ...

If.. anything do happen to me... ... my lovely family members and dearest friends... I would like to tell you all... I love you... ... muacks... ...

In Patient Hospital attachment...

~~ Group 5 ~~

Everyone was asking... "Do yours get paid for your attachment? " ... ... Money is important... but the value of it... sometimes... we had overestimated it.. ... truthly, everyone need money to survive... but at the end of the day... when I was involved in unpaid attachment... I felt satisfied.. glad to be having the chance to expose to the working field where I would be in the coming future...

5 days of in-patient unit attachment... sounding a bit short... but when we made used of every moment we spent there... I did learn.. ... Talking about learning... actually... learning started from a simple heart... sometimes... certain things seemed like easy... but when you were doing.. it turned out to be a different story.. ... to be in a new work place... humble to learn... asked whenever doubt arised.. The hand-on experience gained... was precious to me... ...

Day 1 of mine was stationed in DD- dangerous drug section... day 2-screening the prescription and packaging the drug... although the job was just as simple as one's thought of taking the drug from the rack.. but it needed speed... at the very beginning... I was slow like a snail... bombarded by all the drugs here n there... but late in the evening... (^^)... showed improvement in my speed... Never looked down on the diploma students from mahsa college and uitm who were attached there with us too... they were familiar to their work and I learned a lot from them too... thank to the hearty for them... ...

Day3- IPC and sterile complex.. getting some stories from previous grp saying that they'l ask question during this section.. *Loll*... the previous night... I revised the slides and did some on9 searching... the biggest gift I received on that that day was we met with Mei, who was in charge in sterile complex... at the beginning, she looked fierce.. but she was "soft" actually... admiring her physic theories.. Plz.. dont get shocked when I told you that their cleaning process was based on physic theory... she told us some stories before we left... the case where death took place... who to be blamed for... theirs... who did thankless job...

"Your hand can kill and save".. "be responsible and be alert all the time"... in fact.. they were not sounding easy and simple.. ... i gotta to have a depth sense of something... residing in my heart there.. ... She gave me another stimulation and maturity... I loved her tough way of conveying truth... short talk that ran deep into the heart... woww, at the end, I thought she "restructured" "bit" of our attitude.. Dont you think so, my groupmates? Her words were influencial...

Day4- TDM.. having the chance to go to lab while delivering test tube of patient's blood who was on TDM drug... "AhaH"... it was what that learned during last 2 semester... Clinical pharmacokinetic... that came to play its role... ... knowledge and application were one chunk of it... but experience to adjust the dose was of utmost "green button" to save a patient's life... what was calculated sometimes was not applicable.. ... seriously, it needed experience.. ...

In the evening, ward round to distribute the dangerous drug to ward's counter... it would be my first time to find out how Menara Timur and Menara Utama's ward looked like although I had been studied in um there for the past 3 years... emm... it was not too late to know... right? station by station, we stopped at CICU-cardiac intensive care unit.. it was where i met with a young baby, ran urgently for a surgery... due to heart bleeding... And seeing other patients in the wards there...

That particular night after the ward round, it strengthened my mind... maybe I was not a great people... but I just hope to be able to take care of all the people around me, remind them to stay health and help them whenever I can within my limit... Health is the biggest wealth...

Day5- methadone section... never thought that government had launched this methadone programme for the drug addict... purpose of harm reduction... and that day, I met with the drug addicts who came over the counter and collect their methadone.. Although half of the day was hectic, non-stop meeting the drug addicts and involving in recording their record and diluting the methadone, but indirectly, it was like a good deed helping them to suppress the withdrawal effect... I could detect... some were determined to stop drug.. hopefully, they could make themselve a new life.. n the rest of us (society), dont give up too in giving them hope... Forgiving their past... giving chance for them to turn over a new leaf if they were willing too...

I felt tired at the first two days of attachment... as standing from morning till evening... but the following day, getting used to it... future working life will be similar to that situation... perhaps tired... busy... or ... Anyway, as what Mei said, job satisfaction was the main source of energy that drive someone to work passionately...

Earning money is not that easy... but it is like a gift of life to have chance to dive in noble job... be it a noble... life-saving... satisfaction... or other else... all depend on how one's hope to be... ...

It was a weekend... rest and relax... (>.<) before another round in out-patient attachment on next week ... and everyone... wishing yours to stay healthy all the times.. ... ...

NoGAPS 2011.. TO INFINITY AND BEYOND ...

Finally... NoGAPS 2011 had come to the end... a 5 days 4 nights event... which took place at UM this year...

Relieved... i was relieved... ... ~~ huuu~~... ... although the preparation for it was tiring... ...but... at the end... ... our effort growed... the event was successfully ran... no matter how tired before, it worth than a thousand when I saw all of us- high committee, AJK members n participants, cherished throughout the event... ...

I was totally glad... when all the things came to me smoothly... ... Deep inside my heart... I would like to say a billions of thank you to all the members of my bureau... without them, no matter how well was my arrangement and planning on certain things, it couldnt run that speedy n systematic... ... *Muackss*... LOVE you guys... (^_^)

Day 3, 11/6/2011: Community Outreach Programme (COP)... at Jinjang Utara, Selangor... although it was somewhat hard to help them, but I believed, when everyone of us contributed just a little bit of LOVE for them... the situation would change... "Endless love, endless hope..." poor was not a matter of disease... I just hope that whenever they need health care advice, they could seek help from many parties...

I prayed for them sincerely... ... wishing that their life was getting improved... sooner or later... may all the kids there... receiving proper education system.... they were innocent... lovely... looking at them... playing happily... n i wished that they could live healthy in the near future... Loving them... ...

Day 4, 12/6/2011: GALA night of NoGAPS, at depalma hotel, Ampang... it marked the end of the event.... Wowww... finally... ...

Above was a brief of NoGAPS 2011... actually.. I had made myself a document of it- NoGAPS 2011 which consisted of 45pages long... from the first day,25 June 2010, I took up the responsibility to become head of logistic bureau till the end of the event, 13 June 2011...
When I went through all that I had written... ... part of the experience... sweet memories... sad story sometimes... how did I deal with certain difficulties... at the end... I found out... I grew from a seed... and slowly turned to a little pinkish flower that I loved...
Thank you for having the chance of learning and facing all those thing in my life... and I was glad to become part of you in organizing the event... truly speaking... .... LOVING you all... ...

May the memories we shared together ~~ last forever and ever ~~

~~ TO INFINITY AND BEYOND ~~

That's... if the blogger allowed... I might be uploading the 45 pages long diary here... ...

Pre-NOGAPS...

3 days left before the event... It is a PRE- mood... pre-preparation... pre-finalizing... pre--- ....Brushing up of all the things...

N most importantly, try the very BesT on all the arrangement jobscope... not only own bureau of mine... logistic... but helping each other whenever possible... ... Never let the tiredness to lag us down... ... stay healthy all the times... immune system strength come from own power... if feeling of sick... just tell yourself... it was not the time for sickness to visit you... chased it away... ...

First time headed to Jinjang there today... promoting our Community Outreach Programme (COP)... it rained by the time we reached there... and having meeting with the ketua rumah panjang... n brief of the people there... Nothing to be afraid of... actually...

I knew it deep inside my heart... a sincerely help will never being cursed... I believed...
We would head there again for promotion of event on coming tuesday...

One little hope from mine.. May the deputy dean to approve a few of my requirement... so that the little obstacle can be solved... n it didnt burden my members to move all the things a long way whenever dining finished... ... hopefully... hope for a good news tomorrow after meeting with him... ...

All the BEST for my bureau... ... May NOGAPS be running smoothly, successfully, enjoyably, beneficially for each other, and memorably... ...

(^___^)... GOOD LUCK for all of us... ... ~~

We worked together... sharing tears n joy... ... that bring CoLourS to life... ...

蓝天... 白云...

这天... 我陪妈妈到巴刹去... ... 遇见了他的妈妈... ... 那时伯母在摊里忙着... 她似乎在找机会想和我谈话... 我给了她一个笑容... ...

她也给了我一个慈祥的笑容... 我的心却感到小小的抱歉... 只希望... 一笑胜于千言万语... 第一次发现伯母那慈祥的笑容... ... 伯母... 我希望你能好好地照顾自己... 也祝福你永远健康快乐... 虽然没有亲口告诉你... 但我会永远祝福你... 祝福一个慈祥的妈妈... ...

我在... 旋律中的小心悬... .... 歌词里的共鸣感...

"手放开-李圣杰"... "安静结束也是另一种对待~当眼泪流下来伤已超载~分开也是另一种明白~我给你最后的疼爱是手放开..." ... ...

那首... ... 我每天都爱听过一遍的动心曲- "情歌- 梁靜茹"... ... "陪我唱歌~清唱你的情歌~捨不得~ 短短副歌~心還熱著~也該告一段落~~生命宛如~靜靜的~相擁的河~ 永遠~天長地久... ..." 非凡感动的一首歌... .... 时光不可能倒流... 接受那份无法陪伴在我们身边的曾经... 伤痛让人成长...

渐渐地... 了解到... 两个人时学成熟... 一个人时学独立...

曾经遇见这么一遍文章 - "读书人" 与 "电视人"... ...

["读书人" 永远有把不完的妹.... 读不完的书... 听不完的音乐... 吃不完的美食...

"电视人" 的角度- 其实人生不是把多少妹.... 读多少书... 听多少音乐... 赚多少钱... 而是在有限的期间里经历的... 感受的每分每秒是不时精彩... 是不是有趣? 哪怕再有限再不完整... 我们都因为曾经的精彩... 幕后的付出... 悲伤的结局... ... 而成熟和长大... ...]

这些内容是我改写的个人意见... ...

不管自己是读书人或电视人... ... 我会凭着自己的心走... 宁静又安稳的走着... .... 走向那颗清晰的心悬...
我相信... 属于自己的东西.... 永远都会是自己的... 不属于自己的... 也要觉得庆幸... 因为它让你学会如何拿得起,放得下... ... 相识是一种缘分... 放下是一种尊重... ...

感情的世界... ... 虽然复杂... 但是... 我还会是那个... 做会喜欢单纯的自己... ... ...

The book - A bowl of Nsima...

Sometimes... It was of great pleasure.... pleasure of reading... pleasure of enjoying a cup of hot chocolate milk drink while reading a book... a book that brought you to their life... the second book that I finished reading up today... "A bowl of Nsima"... ...

I thought majority of us... having been told of the life in Africa... we knew that they were really living in devastated poor... famine everywhere... death... disease... But, how much did we know the true life of them?

How much could we feel about their pain? How poor they were? How dark was their sky? How depressed they were? How hopeless in their life?

I got to know them a little bit more... ... ya.. just a little bit more... ...

It was the book... the book that gave me a sense of depth sympathy and aroused my love for them... The story was truth life in Malawi, one of the town in Africa... content written up by a few volunteers who worked n helped up there...

Never thought that their condition was ten times worst as what I had imagined before...

It was in bi-language, I read both the language write-up, and this time, I preferred the chinese version...

I still could remember how the writer described the place they stayed... the meaning of poor to them... n the meaning of poor to us... ... .... how lucky we were, actually... every night, we have a warm bed awaiting for us... we have a huggable blanket... a cosy house... fan, TV, computer... ... if they had all those things, it meant a trillion for them ady... Do you realize it?

The child was having his "Nsima"... Nsima was the main source of food in their country... "A bowl of Nsima"... was a definite survival for them... ...

How innocence was his eye... I could feel it.. ... ...

A bowl of Nsima meant a lot in their life... ... but people around us... the world... kept on complaining... this and that...

Life sometimes fulled with ups and downs... but we could make it left and right... Have you tried for it? Before making any complaint, plz... having a second thought... just dont simply complain...

I got to know... when they had no food... they searched for insects to fill up their hungry...

"Insects"... esp ants... ... had become part of their meal everyday... ...

To be able to attend school and learn to write and draw, to them, is the biggest gift in their life...

I loved this photo so much... They reminded me of embracing knowledge... Knowledge was not gained in an easy way... ... It was the gift of life... ...

They enjoyed every meal presented to them...

Do you appreciate every meal you have? truly speaking... ...

"I felt blissful enough... to have my mum's food n soup every day n night... ...^^... " ... ...


It was another article from the book...

"一寸一寸的活... 一寸一寸的离开人间..." ... ...

deep sadness... ...

since a very young age... they were forced to work... not to earn money... but just for the purpose of survival... ...

Do you know that if they rejected to work, how bad would be the consequence they faced?

Another touching article from the book - "Infinity and beyond"...

"天荒地老"... ...

At the end, the child was died... He had saved his mother and his neighboursss... ... I was running into the story... ... the writer had wrote it so movable that... ... it made your tears to drop... ... ...

finally... I believed... ... i believed that the belief that I had when i was very young... n it appeared in the book..

"虽然这个世界很复杂... 但是我还会相信... 相信单纯的人存在着... 因为我是一个单纯的自己..."

It was another write-up... ... long story too... but I liked the story... ... a truth picture of "heart and soul"... ...

"Muacksss... " .... ....

~ The end~~

Friends, when you meet the book one day, do spare sometimes for it... believed me... ...

It was not a thousand that count but a little bit of love you gained that grow you up ...

Before I forget...we have been there...

It was the day after the last paper... 11 May 2011...

n... we realized... we will be having our last two semesters soon... ...

Time flied... ... seriously... ...