2009...

Year 2009...is going to over soon...this year...the time seemed like passing in a lightning speed..

When flashing back...they had become the history of life...How do u feel for the year??
Is there anythings that u had left out? What make u to feel the most? Anything or any particular person that touched u? What have u done in this year? Which movie will be ur favourite? Any special memory or events to be shared? the most happiest moment would be? Do I did something wrong or bad?

Sorry to tell myself that... sometimes I found out that I was a nothing but it was just a nothing of nothing...In this whole year..a lot of things had happened...sometimes..I just knew that...I was cheating myself for that...for the happiness of others... Perhaps other might think that I was foolish being 'bullied'...as they were totally wrong...but that I really failed to stop from putting myself on other shoes and cared for them much... As the Buddha said, "行人之不能行"..."何乐而不为呢"... Anyway,although I knew everythings since the day they chose me to become the treasurer of the hospital bill.. I just had to stand fair and it was the biggest tolerable heart that I could give for solving all the "mathematical figure" without ruining the relationship of them...

Let talk other else..emm... My U life was quite busy.... Since the day u choose it... I was going to face it... for whatever happen then... I just hope that my study life can go smoothly for the coming journey ahead with a sincere heart.. My coursemates are fine too as well as my UTmates... thanks for ur guys colouring my life much...

Actually...I had left out one thing... Maybe in one day then... God will let me know it.. Am I too late telling myself that... although it had reside in my heart for some times... Be patient...becuase "I BELIEVE" it...

Friends n my family...if in this year..I had done something wrong..made urs guy unhappy..can urs forgive me? For whatever I did...I was starting with a piece of heart... if I didnt..I'm sorry...

New year is coming..New year..new hope.. May God bless us all... May all of us stay healthy and happily in the year of 2010..

Today..when..

Two more weeks before U is reopened again...This coming wednesday...daddy mummy them are going to overseas Beijing trip with uncles and aunties..it is their families' 8 days trip...Ya..I thought they are all tired too after a year long of works and lotsa of unhapiness things that kept on bothering them since last few months ago...It's a good time for them to call it a day...

Theng here is going to resposible for her house..no matter it will be the smallest trivial matters or the alarming noise of the clock..Younger sis Mun and me only will be at home...

Scary?? because only two girls at home.. it cnt be the reason what...
Can I manage all the things without the help of my brother this time??
Can I believe myself ??

That day...The feeling of giving up the design I did.. It was the ever messy messy work of mine...What an unacceptable piece of art in the garden..I cnt spoil the beauty of art..the love of art...the passion of art..n the enthusiasm of art...At last..that I gave up the piece I had done...with a heavy heart...

Beauty of art reveal a patient heart you possess...Yes...although it was failed in the first time.. pushing you to the death river...without any fishes swimming around...
But that your heart will dance again with the soft romantic music of art in your art of soul and mind...your appreciation and your patient to your design...

A peaceful mind and a sincere heart...here it goes for you...

血淋淋

正在收拾行礼的小孙女原本隔天会与一班远到而来的朋友一起去旅行..突然……
“姐，老婆婆的伤口流血了….”一把发抖的声音…
“我赶来看看…”小孙女回答道…
老婆婆的伤口突然流血不止,床褥也被污染了…老婆婆没有吃惊与大喊...但已浮现出一副快要晕倒的样子...
小孙女这时只想起没有工作的F叔...“老婆婆的伤口突然流血不止，叔，麻烦你快来载我们到医院去…”话还没说完，F叔就回答道：“怎么你那么的大惊小怪的?? Aiyoyo...平时老婆婆的脚也就有点流血的啊，可能一时敏感吧...别担心...没事的...下个礼拜我们，你的爸妈，G叔一家大小，A姑 n…etc…要到国外旅行了..现在到医院去有点不吉利叻...没什么大事的..替她止止血啦..”
“HAAAaa…就这样简单吗??”小孙女听了有点给愣住了...血还是在流...
小孙女急忙打电话告诉老婆婆的几个儿子...结果呢....好失败的小孙女想到要打电话叫医院急救车...她真的不懂那是什么号码...幸亏到最后,小孙女的妈妈叫了堂哥把老婆婆送去医院...
血一直在流...小孙女手持沙布按住老婆婆的脚...心中有点害怕...因为血已流到了小孙女的手...但她一定要保持冷静...
....“手术需在明天马上进行...请告诉病人其他的家属...别担心,不是什么大问题..没事的...”小孙女一直很专心的在听医生所告诉她的病情报告..
这个晚上，小孙女一个人抱住了医院里沙发上的小枕头睡着了…她不要去想那些有的没的..搞乱她的思绪..手机突然响了…
原来是D伯..“…该是你贡献的时候了..你那么闲空..老婆婆平日又那么疼你…她以前也没有很好地对待我们…你别令我们失望……她明天的生死打电话告诉我们就行啦……”
小孙女听了有点给发呆去了…原来婶母们说的他..那时他对待老婆婆的态度…她相信了..在电话里..他还说了许多让小孙女难受的话…
“…别以为你是知识分子大学生你就可以乱来…带了老婆婆来到医药费昂贵的医院...留少少血就动什么千万块的手术..大惊小怪…自以为事…”一句句刺破小孙女的心的话语…
小孙女也只是一心一意为可能快要离开大家的老婆婆做她所能做的事…从来没有想过要得到什么利益..分财产啦..出风头啦…为什么要这么说小孙女..她的心真的给伤透透了..
她连旅行也放弃了..因为她知道你们有不得空快要到国外旅行而想去拖延动手术的理由..
“对不起,到这家医院来是因为上次老婆婆第一次的手术也是在这儿进行的..也是伯A的意见…不是我自作主张..动手术是因为要堵住破了的血管…我没有自以为事…”小孙女把话说完后…以为可以把眼泪撑住，但是它们就是那么的不听话…
她站在D伯的立场想了一会儿..再怎么体谅..还是觉得他有点匆动也过分了一点…人如果只把十几年前不好的生活回忆报复在母亲的身上..把身边的人搞得多么的难堪难受…这样的你会快乐一点吗?以前生活艰苦,父母无法给你最舒舍的…说一开始就是偏心..这完全赖在母亲的身上吗?
老婆婆生育十五…你以为只有你活得艰苦而已吗?别人的生活不只是呼吸，他们其实也是在很努力的活着啊…
乱发脾气和大声说话不是解决危及的好方法…记得哦…
“忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空….”