25.12.2011

It was another year of Christmas... Merry Christmas to all of you... Time flied... year 2011 was going to end... 

Home sweet home... the comfort at home and the sweet smell of my bed always reduced my previously accumulated tiredness...  I was tired today... seriously... but once stepped into my room... the comfort filled up my heart.. ... 

Gambateh... study days continued as usual... 

Maroon 5- Never Gonna Leave this Bed... tonight.. with a deep sweet SLEEP... 

3rd Law Book tomorrow... Jia You... =)))...

20.12

七七八八的感觉真的很棒... 做了很久... 改了又改... 写了又写的proposal 终于可以出炉了.... Huhuuu.. ... (^___^)... ... 我... 终于把所有的... assignmentsss, reportsss, proposal etc etc etcccc... 都做好了... (^___^)... ...

不知不觉... 时间就在忙碌中的溜走... 今天能够静静的坐下休息... 无忧无虑... 那感觉真的很棒很棒... ... 劳累的身体终于可以"休养"了... 再过三天... 本人大学最后第二次的study week 又要来了... 比起一天到晚都对着电脑.... 其实我宁愿选择静静的坐下读书... 如今真的体会到... 也更珍惜... 可以静静坐下读书的时间... ...

虽然三个月多没有去过戏院... 最后... 我还是看了... 一直很想看的那部电影 《那一年, 我们一起追的女孩》... 因为you tube "上映" 了... 虽然没有很特别... 但故事的确反映了现实生活的我们...

时间永远回不了过去... 最感动的... 原来... 不是看见女主角结婚... 而是男主角心里的那一句... 他看见她幸福快乐... 他已心满意足... ... 这就是爱... ... 我也听说过这是作者九把刀的真实故事... ... 无论如何... 我还蛮喜欢它的故事... .... 有时... 当一个人渐渐的长大... ... 成熟感自然而然地加深... 因为... 生活让我们成长... 经历让我们成熟... ...

简单的开心... 其实... 就是快快乐乐的往前走... ... (^_^)... 祝福别人... 也祝福自己...

Twilight- breaking dawn... Alvin & the chipmunks 3... 还没看呢... 无关系吧... 有机会就去看... 没有就等you tube nia... hahaa... ...

加油... 还有 16 天... 大考要到了... ... ... 开始读书了... .... 加油... ... ^^....

今天... 还是那一句... 无比的棒... Muahahaaa... =)))) ... ...送自己一个"赞" ... =))))) ...

12.12.

Life was TIRED recently... .. tiredness never left me since October... this semester, we became the WHITE MICE of many thingsss... poor coordination of department, late in choosing thesis title, additional clerkship... n etc etc... ... all those just put us into a TANK of HOT water... freaking tired ... ... seriously... ..

Finally... our level coordinator met us today... n.. we had the chance to make some noises and complaint for them... we were not purposely criticizing there... but improvement should be done for the coming batch juniors... ...

Anyway... this semester was going to end soon... no matter how tired was yesterday, today or tomorrow... we had been traveled for the past few years on this journey... Keep going on... Dont give up... ... =))))... ...

Perhaps... this was the only way to motivate myself... sometimes... a HUG.. meant a lot to me... i loved to hug my blanket n my teddies whenever I was freaking tired...

OmG... i was having a dream last night... omg... chou gong delivered me a msg... perhaps... should i reconsider... ... i was so ignorant... Was i acting blind for other concern? or.. i had been pulled myself out from being loved? or... no idea... ...

... ... busy rushing of this that those these... ... etc etc... was coming to a tempoary full stop soon... GamBaTeh... ... (^___^) ... ...

.. Power of WaNTan Mee...

... A BIG plate of wantan mee... cheered me up again... (^___^) ... ...

GaMbaTeH... ... =) ... ...

11.11.11

Today is the once in a hundredss years of memorable date.. 11.11.11 ...
Izit memorable to you?
actually, today.. it was like any other day to me... the best things ever was I was having my sem break now... feeling less rush and having more resting time at hometown... (^.^).. ...
But, I suffered from a poor sleep on yesterday night.. (T_T)... perhaps due to the heaty food and the "alcoholic chicken" that i had on the makan feast during yesterday night... (T__T)... the feeling was uneasy for the interruption like waking up and falling down ... ...
QUALITY SLEEP is the main ESSENCE for my brain to work... but not Gingko.. ...

Those two photos were the case notes file that i would review on next semester... (@-@)... gotta required even more EFFORTssss.. I studied only about 20 case notes on last few days ago to get a more clearer idea of my method.. but i spent some times on it ady... (zzz) although the target was roughly 150 patients' note... but if i were to bless with 36 to 48 hours per day, i wished to get a sample size of 200-300... ... Could it be? (?_?)... ...

Life was kinda rush and busy recently.. i was doing my thesis proposal since two weeks ago...
Huuu... finally... perhaps 111111... the biggest happiness presented for myself was the BARELY accomplished piece of work.. ... with some effort of writing every single word and designing the method properly.. ...

Couldnt imagine that my working desk was messy that way on these few days... ... with my pinkish small pig to hug for when i was tired of facing in front of my lappy for about 12H+++ per day, i was kinda glad for it.. ... it was so soft and smooth... to melt away the tiredness and sour of sedentary position.. ...

The smiley sun just reminded me of "keep holding on for whatever challenge ahead"... it was the Beginning of never ending worksss... ... I was grateful enough for getting my first choice of thesis... clinical-based... topic that i was interested in... ...

I had left behind with lotss of untouched lecture notes to study... untouched LAW books... site master file.. ... clerkship report.. etc etc etc... ....

The most worried thing to me right now was not all those academic stuff, but it was my father.. who would have his second surgery to remove another sore besides his prostate gland... next week time, I would know it more once his following up report come out... ... God Bless.. God bless...

GAMBATEH... ... Journey of great STRENGTH and PATIENCE started ahead... ... with the abundance of WORKS... NOTES... ... anyway.. the most important thing was TiMe ManageMenT...

BAXIA, theng theng.. ... I believe.. ... I could go through it smoothly... ... with Love from my heart... love from parents and friends... and love from my bed.. as well as love from a big+sweet+crunchy APPLE... ... =).. ... wakakaa... ... (^.^).. ...

111111 was the Lovely day with all my mum's food.. .. I was BLISSFUL ... ... (>.<) .. ...

Night... GamBateh again on ToMorroW... ... =) .. ...

FuLL HoUsE... ...

It had been weeksss.. since i last updated my post... ....

~~FuLL house at ss2 maLL~~
11.10.2011... it was the very first time I visited there... and the very first time I stepped into the FuLL house...



The very fisrt time too... to gather such much of people since semester reopened... as.. the past few weekss.. we were busy for many thingsss.. clerkship report, choosing thesis, etc n etc... ...

perhaps.. the greatest attractive news... were the sweet couples of ... .... .... (^.^)... ... anyway... we were so GLAD to know that.. ... May God BleSS for them...

neVer EnDinG workssss... ..... .....

OmG... It was TruLy FINAL YEAR... .... before we were apart... =((( ... ...

Actually, there was hidden meaning of "FuLL HouSe" in many sense... ... perhaps.. today one's unable to realize it... but Life is FuLL... blissfull... when satisfaction filled up the heart... ...
Dont you think so? (=.=) ... ...

Peace begins with a smile...

~~ Peace begins with a smile ~~ Mother Teresa .... ...

Whatever it is... be it challenging ahead... be it tough... be it busy... be it no idea... be it troublesome... be it interesting... be it a learning... .... ...

Anyway... the day is the same as any other treasurable day to go through... ... I hope to get the thesis topic of my first choice... May God bless me... ... (^^)... ...

No risk no gain... ...

at the end... I might accept whatever that is given to me... ...

~~ Peace begins with a smile ~~ ... ...

17 Sep.. saturday night.. ...

The very first week of my final year semester.. ... coming with the FIVE LAW BOOKS... .. seemed like.. i was going to study LAWsss soon.. .... ... n first day of class.. .. i was motivated by Miss Lo's dao li.. ...

I loved this week so much.. ... perhaps.. ... feeling more free.. or perhaps.. .. I could spend more time in the lovely kitchen there... cooking my lovely dishes... lovely soup.. ... (^.^).. .. having lovely chat with coursemates.. .. all were just so LOVELY...

Anyway... next week.. I'm going to choose the thesis topic.. ... Good Luck for me and my dearest coursemates.. ... May God to bless us all.. .. sail through all the challenge during thesis period and most importantly, be blessed with good health and fresh mindset to face the everyday's bulky works or clerkship or reports or hospital service or tests or ... ... ...

Loving this week till the max.. ... reasonless.. .. or perhaps.. .. i had made myself another cutie bookmark.. .. shopped myself a lovely bag last few days ago.. .. cooked myself all my favourite dishes.. ... cleaned up the whole room.. .. rearranged the whole things.. .. or perhaps.. .. i had been fully recharged.. ... (^_~).. ...

GLEE.. ... (^___^).... ... reasonless that.. .. I was feeling so blissful today.. .. perhaps.. .. something gone excessive of my serotonin neurotransmitter secretion today-which was known to be mood controller.. .. anyway.. ..do keep a smiling face and a glee heart.. on everyday onwardss.. ..as in one day.. .. you might know the beauty of it.. ... ...

911.. ...

Forgot to update it previously.. ...

with.. Nicole.. the pharmacist who I attached to.. ...

It was the place where I was having my community pharmacy attachment and part time working from 29 August - 3 Sep 2011.. ... sometimes.. ... i missed the place so much.. ... (^.^).. ...

Lot of precious experience found and met.. ...

I was.. ... Feeling great for the past four months of holidays.. ... it was meant for a totally rest for me.. .. spiritually, mentally n physically.. ... n.. I had lots of time to carry out activities that i loved to do.. .. (>.<).. cooking, reading novels, watching drama, day-dreaming, sleeping, eating n etc etc.. ...

Time flied.. ...finally... today is the last day of the four months' HOLIDAYSsss... ...

Tomorrow... it will be the first day of my final year.. ... Looking forward to it.. ... n i missed my dearest coursemates so much.. ... (^.^).. ...

All the best on this thesis year... good luck ahead... n HaPPy mooncake festival on tomorrow.. .. wishing everyone.. to bless with perfect health.. ...

Embrace every tomorrow with great HOPE.. ... (^_~)... ...

6th sense.. ..

Deep inside my heart... I knew... God had saved three of us.. .. my brother, my younger sis mun mun and me... It was a long story... ...

This particular Sunday afternoon... 3 September 2011... once the three of us happily lunch.. ... then... there was an inner voice... like a "6th sense"... ... telling me that... " theng, you better sleep at room, plz.. ... Don't follow them.. ..."

And coincidentally, my brother told me to rest more at room too after working for the past few days... emm.. ..fine then.. ... seemed like everything came to me.. ... as if it was a fate... ...

... having a sweet soundly afternoon nap around 2pm .. ... "maybe it's intuition, something that you dont question ... ... ... ..." my ringtone woke me up... ...

I heard a nervous and shaky voice from my brother... "ah nui, I met with an accident... whole car damaged .. ..." ... ... I jumped out from the lovely bed.. ... comforting him... feeling useless and helpless... worried.. ...

"How are you then? injured? where are you now? I may help to call ambulans and police to go there.. n ... ... .... .... " my heart just flied to the accident scene.. ... thinking so much somemore.. ..

Lots of scary and bloody picture flashed through my mind.. ...

... Keeping myself calm.. ... .. ...luckily... uncle and aunt rushed to the area to settle all the police report n other stuff with him.. ...

... Unbelievable... none of the cars were on the highway that time... he hit no car and no car bumped with him.. ... he lost controlled in such a sudden.. the whole car spinned in the middle of the road ... n the car hit the palang beside the road.. urgent... the car seemed like gonna to explode then... it was a CLOSE CALL.. .. niche of DEATH and ALIVE... ... the car was badly damaged.. .... (T___T)...



Thank God that my brother was saved... ... no one believed.. ..once you saw the car... you may wonder the driver or anyone inside the car was ALIVE.. ... but seriously... .. my brother didnt suffer from any injuries... and he looked totally fine once he back from the scene... ...

I was relieved for that.. ... but.. ..on the other hands... ... worries arised again.. ... my uncle showed me all the pictures took on the scene... ... and I was not believed too... ... I was worried... worrying that he might suffer from any inner injuries... ... he hit the stearing.. ... n.. ... ... ....

It was not the time to have useless thought... To me, a thorough medical check up was the better proof... ...

May God to bless my brother.. ...

I'm praying... ...praying sincerely... ... May GOD... to bless my brother all the times... ...

8 月 31 日...

好像... 有好几个礼拜没有 update 我的 blog 了... ... 该是... 本人在家乡享受着假期... 忽略了它... 有好多东西想写下... 但却有好懒哦... ....

时间过得真的很快... 还剩12天... 本人又要去上课了... 四个月的假期似乎慢慢地和我道别... ...

这个礼拜... 都在 Caring 做 ParTime... ...

前几个月的假期... 有时过得还挺充实... 充实一番... 又再懒洋洋一番... ... (>.<) .. ...
有时... 我已经在感觉到了... 时间原来可以冲淡一切... 充实可以渐渐埋掉伤心... 今天让我发现这么一首歌... by 五月天的阿信-“我心中尚未崩坏的地方”... ... 虽然我没有很喜欢这首歌的音乐... 但是我却很欣赏某某一 part 的歌词...

... " ... 我们一直在长大，遇到过伤害、遇到过孤单，历经磨练，以为自己撑不住了，后来才明白原来，我们心中还有个尚未崩坏的地方... ... 至少在我的心中... 自己为自己鼓掌... .... " .. ....

...人要学会往前走...过去的就让它过去吧... ... 知足常乐... .... 明天的太阳... 还是会挂在薇蓝的天空... 和你微笑...

(^^)... 再过两天... 我就会拿到第一次在Caring as pharmacy assistant's partime 的薪水... ... 很高兴哦... ...
假期快乐... ...

decisive enough...

vs vs .... ....

Grateful for someone? holidays? money? ... ....

Next week would be the last week of my attachment in Caring... I just have two days left to attend... (^^)... finally... sometimes... I was getting a heavy heart to leave them... seriously speaking... the "Caring people" there are nice... I found lots of happiness when counselling the elderly... and I learned lots from both the pharmacists... ... Thank you... from the bottom of my heart... ....

But, I was still drowning in an undecisive ocean... .... Nicole, the pharmacist I was attached to, requesting my help to have part time with her during the coming Raya break... in addition to the Pristine company sale manager- Sikini... who asked for my help too.. ....somemore, asked by the Caring area manager...

Putting myself in their shoes... ya, the shop just left two people to work, the rest were malays who were celebrating for their big day... thinking till that point...I really felt hard to reject... ...

Besides, I felt grateful for Nicole and Miss Ooi... ... belanja me several times for the great lunch... in Wong Kok restaurant, Prince cafe and Italion's ss2.. ....

I was confused too... If I were to sacrifice the raya holidays...

But... ... it was another great opportunity for earning myself more money... working for 5days in Caring, 29August- 2Sept... double and triple paid in between, bonus for every Pristine product sale... although right now i was having my part time job too as Pristine's promoter, but if I were to work again during raya, I could have enough money to fully pay for my coming semester's course fee... .... and extra pocket money too... ...

Earning money in a way that I enjoyed working for what I liked to be... temporary as pharmacist assistant and promoter... ... counselling... ... I thought... sacrificing some of the holidays would be fine enough... ...right?

Sometimes... it was hard enough for me to reject the offer...my boss... who asked me for three times... and yet I was undecisive...

Anyway... today, I was decisive enough... "Yes, I do come back... " ....

Caring...

Well... Caring is the community phamacy that I'm attached to recently... The first day of it was my 23rd birthday... Anyway, i was glad to be attached there... The pharmacist that I was attached to was kinda busy with her work, as she was the manager of the outlet there... and i found out that she worked only 2 or 3 days per week.. n that's why my attachment period had been dragged even longer now...

At the same time, i was now attached to another pharmacist as well, Miss Ooi, besides Nicole... Both of them were nice... Miss Ooi shared me a lot of basic knowledge about the patient's counselling and handling of difficult case... I felt grateful enough for her guidance... seriously speaking... but sad to say that... this coming week would be her last day in Caring there... so, i would work for her as well... (^_^) ....

The first week of my attachment, sometimes, it was tired as I stood from 9am-5.30pm... helping my pharmacist to take drug for the patients, serving the customers in the shop there, tagging price tag of the new drugs, checking drug store n etc...

Miss Ooi expected a lot from me.. n she was just dare enough to let me handle the patients who seek for medication... first day of it, she allowed me to consult the diabetic and high cholesterol patients who bought metformin 500mg and atorvastatin 20mg... not only that, when the shop was busy (last thursday), she would allow me to even dispense medication like Beno expectorant, Tussidex for dry cough, Zyrtec-D n Fedac for blocked runny nose... luckily, she taught me the "formulae" of the specific drug they commonly dispense for the condition on the very first day.. ... if not, i wont have that much knowlegde and skill to handle the case... I would thank her from the bottom of my heart... I loved her... ... *loving loving* her... ... ^^...

A few people that I remembered the most... 18July- the uncle who was feeling so shy and came to me... " Leng lui, can you explain to me what's the difference between the different type of Durex?" he stood near to the sexual product area ... ... "sorry, boss, I was the new trainee here... would you mind I ask the pharmacist to explain to you more? ..." ... hahaa... I answered him that way... I got no idea about it... definitely...

Another case was that I spent for about an hour to chat with the woman who came and bought the antidepressant medication, Seroxat... Omg.. sometimes, it was hard to communicate with her... as she felt so lonely and depressed... n other workers in Caring told me that she came frequently to disturb them... and everyone was ignoring her as they were busy with their things too, i understood... so, it was my weekly job now to talk and comfort her... ... (@-@)... I thought, I was not a good counsellor for the depressed people...

Looking at the pages and pages of assignment that I needed to retype... My laziness arised again... I havent started even for a single page... hahaa...

718...

718... 忆廷... 先祝你生日快乐.. ... 其实... 明天才是我的生日...

人渐渐长大时... 好像慢慢察觉到... 自己的生日其实不再那么的重要... 妈妈十月怀胎辛苦的把自己生下... 几个月大的我被急进送院... 泻血不止差一点又要离开这个世界... 小时候又是哮喘病人... 还记得一年级时,呼吸困难差一点就要断气... 可是妈妈却从来没有因此而抛弃我... 一年三百六十五天还是无微不至的照顾我... 她什么也不期望... 只希望我身体健康....

"妈... 我爱你..." 如今年长23 的我... 不是因为妈... 我也不可能活下来... 活下来... 或许是因为这样.. 我真的很感恩... 希望自己渺小的存在... 能够帮助日后有困难的病人.. .

近几年来... 其实每个生日... 我都很希望到孤儿院去... 煮些食物给他们吃... 或许今年也不会达成... 因为明天会是我第一天的community pharmacy's attachment... 我相信这个愿望... 或许在某某一天可能会达成...

明天我不想有什么样的庆祝和礼物... 谢谢大家的一番好意... 我诚心希望... 在我身边的家人和朋友... 或远方的朋友们... 能好好地照顾自己... 开开心心... 身体健康... “肥肥白白”... 那我也就很开心了...

今年我只有一个愿望...

每个人看见我的小妹都加以关心不及... 如果你以前见过我的小妹... 你应该看得出她现在那令人担心的情况... 因为那疾病... 她的健康每况愈下... 这已有几个月的事情了... 我很心酸... 心痛... 什么也帮不上... 但如果连我也这样... 那希望哪儿燃生? 我应该了解到病人的心情... 我最大的生日愿望... 只希望她的病能早日康复... ... 希望白血球不再作怪... 小妹，大姐会以最大的鼓励支持你... ...

假期其实还很快乐... 吃..睡..看戏..etc... attachment 时时间就充实点吧... ..

忆廷... 生日快日...^^...

DisCOMFORT of sToMacH.. ...

It had been 48hours... where my stomach was dived in discomfort zone... ..

Period pain? Food poisoning? or excessive blood loss? Last two days ago.. I had drawn out 150mL of blood.. n in the afternoon.. i just realized it was my "period" period.. ... but i thought it wont be the main reason for the discomfort...

I felt hard to figure out the pain... it was not the usual stomachache... ... I seemed lost to describe it.. ... anyway... i had beared with it calmly on these two days.. ...

"Isnt it the consequences of taking a lot of cold drink during APPS in Indonesia there last week? as I rarely and seldom have cold drink and food... ..." (T_____T).. ...

The last powerful stomach pain happened to me on last year December... and now was another half year where the attack came to me again.. ... it sounded that the "attack" hit me twice a year.. ... but... last night... the intense discomfort made me dropping my tears again... it was "superpain"... till my mind ran into blank.. ...

Now, i was getting better... ... relieved...

... Give me a hug... may the disCOMFORT dissappear sOOn.. ..

10th APPS 2011...

10th APPS- Asia Pacific Pharmaceutical Symposium 2011... was held in Yogyakarta, Indonesia.. from 2-8July... Glad that having the chance to attend it for the very first time in my life... ...

day1, 3July 2011, Sunday.. ..Opening ceremony, Symposium1+2, PCE preparation, CSE preparation n cultural night...

The four of us, from UM, Malaysia... ... me, zakiah, qing liang n li wen.. ...

(PCE result of mine)

PCE- patient counselling education contest... which was held on 4July, after symposim 3+4 at 3pm in Mendut room of Saphir Hotel... Indeed, it was my first time for the competition.. there were 25of us, in the advanced level of the competition... from different countries... ...

the PCE module will be in my final year on the coming semester.. ..emm, truly, i didnt have any experience and guidance previously to counsel the patient... but I tried and gained some experience too... n what relieved me was that all of us were given the case note reference one day before... anyway, i didnt have much time to prepare for it... spending 2hours only to write my points and memorize all the facts... 12minutes of counselling were kinda short... ...

although I lost in the competition, but it was worth to gain experience and build some confidence to counsel patient... thx Eric, judge of PCE who kindly gave me some comments..

free night of 4July... hanging out with my group- grp5.. .. nice to meet all of them... our grp consisted of students from M'sia, 4of us, 4 from indonesia, Kesha from Poland, Chris from taiwan, Nantan from Thailand, Mino from Jepun.. ... Nice to meet them... ...

N lovely Kesha, brought along with her some snacks and chocolate from Poland... great to have chance to taste all of them.. n thx for her chocolate... she presented me for two... Loll.. i loved it so much that i felt hard to have it into my stomach... ...

5 July, Tuesday... Jogja city tour... 1st station- Sultan Palace...

2nd station- Prambanan temple... Candi hindu, Vishna, Praba.... really... they were historical...

International night...

following day- 6 July 2011.. .. wednesday... ... cutural workshop... we learned to dance.. n attending a speech... ... Regional Meeting 3 of that day... huuu... lasting long... from 2.30pm til 9.30pm...

Tired.. ... n found out that... the gunung berapi nearby had "active activity" and heard some people said there was movement of our area n the hotel we stayed... luckily... we were safe at the end.. ...

day5- 7July 2011, wednesday... a visit to University of Gadja Mada (UGM)...

"Make our own cosmetic" workshop... we made our own lip gloss there.. ... interesting... ^^...

In the evening... we had our "Rational Drug Use" campaign in Malioboro Street.. woww... the street was crowded and merry... ... besides distributing the pamplet, we explained and stopped the passenger along the street about the rational use of drug.. hope that our little knowledge could educate them much on proper use of medicine...

Gala Night at Resto Garden... ... congratz to m'sia team who was the champion of oral presentation- my roomate Xin Yun from USM and champion of poster presentation- Ikhwan, from uitm, my grpmate.. ...

The night marked the end of APPS 2011... .. at that moment... ... i was glad... glad that the tiredness ended.. n the next morning... flight back to m'sia and gonna to have a nice sleep... but feeling hard to leave all the lovely people there... esp my grp leader, Anin, Yonika n Standie... all of my group5 mates and new friends there... ...

~~ we shared, we worked, we enjoyed, we loved each other~~

It was indeed once in a life time of experience.. ...

Muacks... Theng theng here will miss yours forever... ... ^^... ...

Out-Patient Hospital attachment...

Out-patient hospital attachement...

27 June- 1July 2011...

was over... ...

besides drug packaging, labelling n checking... we did go to counselling ward round- asthma padeatric ward, pharmCare, revolving fund... ...

roughly... i thought i could figure out how my future working life would be after my final year of studying... ...

time flied... ...gonna to be my last year of studying life and all the best for this THESIS year... anyway... ...

... (^_~) ...

Feeling cold for a Monday...

The weather was cold and damp... in addition to the freeze environment in OP section today... I was liked freezing out... * CHILLING*... Cold... ...

I missed my friends so much on yesterday night... friends... esp my hometown friends... bee ling, yutian, mei ling, wai yan, ying ying, yen tyng n etc etc... my matric friends... caroline, mai mai, kui teng, mei tey, seow hui, jia mei n etc... I missed you guys so much... some of them were graduated and started to work... some were enjoying their holidays... some were in internship... some were losing in contact... some were... ... ...

Friends.. how much do I miss you all... I hope that... you are all staying healthy and fine all the time... ... Take care... ...

Emm.. feeling weird in such a sudden today... I thought I was just thinking too further of it... soon after my last day of hospital attachment on this coming friday... the next day... saturday morning... around 4.30am.. i will be leaving m'sia... attending a 7days 6 nights Asia Pacific Pharmaceutical Symposium (APPS) in Jogjakarta, Indonesia... .. with Zakiah, Qing liang n Li Wen... ...

emm... i felt a bit worried... perhaps... thinking too much... the place is an earthquake spot... n last saturday, i saw a news from online the star reporter saying that there was unpredictable geographical change that might take place soon... ... "loll, i'm thinking so much... ..right?" ... ...

Dont forecast... ... perhaps... ... ... sometimes... life is a fate... ... but... thinking positively and looking forward are what should I be having right now.. ...

If.. anything do happen to me... ... my lovely family members and dearest friends... I would like to tell you all... I love you... ... muacks... ...

In Patient Hospital attachment...

~~ Group 5 ~~

Everyone was asking... "Do yours get paid for your attachment? " ... ... Money is important... but the value of it... sometimes... we had overestimated it.. ... truthly, everyone need money to survive... but at the end of the day... when I was involved in unpaid attachment... I felt satisfied.. glad to be having the chance to expose to the working field where I would be in the coming future...

5 days of in-patient unit attachment... sounding a bit short... but when we made used of every moment we spent there... I did learn.. ... Talking about learning... actually... learning started from a simple heart... sometimes... certain things seemed like easy... but when you were doing.. it turned out to be a different story.. ... to be in a new work place... humble to learn... asked whenever doubt arised.. The hand-on experience gained... was precious to me... ...

Day 1 of mine was stationed in DD- dangerous drug section... day 2-screening the prescription and packaging the drug... although the job was just as simple as one's thought of taking the drug from the rack.. but it needed speed... at the very beginning... I was slow like a snail... bombarded by all the drugs here n there... but late in the evening... (^^)... showed improvement in my speed... Never looked down on the diploma students from mahsa college and uitm who were attached there with us too... they were familiar to their work and I learned a lot from them too... thank to the hearty for them... ...

Day3- IPC and sterile complex.. getting some stories from previous grp saying that they'l ask question during this section.. *Loll*... the previous night... I revised the slides and did some on9 searching... the biggest gift I received on that that day was we met with Mei, who was in charge in sterile complex... at the beginning, she looked fierce.. but she was "soft" actually... admiring her physic theories.. Plz.. dont get shocked when I told you that their cleaning process was based on physic theory... she told us some stories before we left... the case where death took place... who to be blamed for... theirs... who did thankless job...

"Your hand can kill and save".. "be responsible and be alert all the time"... in fact.. they were not sounding easy and simple.. ... i gotta to have a depth sense of something... residing in my heart there.. ... She gave me another stimulation and maturity... I loved her tough way of conveying truth... short talk that ran deep into the heart... woww, at the end, I thought she "restructured" "bit" of our attitude.. Dont you think so, my groupmates? Her words were influencial...

Day4- TDM.. having the chance to go to lab while delivering test tube of patient's blood who was on TDM drug... "AhaH"... it was what that learned during last 2 semester... Clinical pharmacokinetic... that came to play its role... ... knowledge and application were one chunk of it... but experience to adjust the dose was of utmost "green button" to save a patient's life... what was calculated sometimes was not applicable.. ... seriously, it needed experience.. ...

In the evening, ward round to distribute the dangerous drug to ward's counter... it would be my first time to find out how Menara Timur and Menara Utama's ward looked like although I had been studied in um there for the past 3 years... emm... it was not too late to know... right? station by station, we stopped at CICU-cardiac intensive care unit.. it was where i met with a young baby, ran urgently for a surgery... due to heart bleeding... And seeing other patients in the wards there...

That particular night after the ward round, it strengthened my mind... maybe I was not a great people... but I just hope to be able to take care of all the people around me, remind them to stay health and help them whenever I can within my limit... Health is the biggest wealth...

Day5- methadone section... never thought that government had launched this methadone programme for the drug addict... purpose of harm reduction... and that day, I met with the drug addicts who came over the counter and collect their methadone.. Although half of the day was hectic, non-stop meeting the drug addicts and involving in recording their record and diluting the methadone, but indirectly, it was like a good deed helping them to suppress the withdrawal effect... I could detect... some were determined to stop drug.. hopefully, they could make themselve a new life.. n the rest of us (society), dont give up too in giving them hope... Forgiving their past... giving chance for them to turn over a new leaf if they were willing too...

I felt tired at the first two days of attachment... as standing from morning till evening... but the following day, getting used to it... future working life will be similar to that situation... perhaps tired... busy... or ... Anyway, as what Mei said, job satisfaction was the main source of energy that drive someone to work passionately...

Earning money is not that easy... but it is like a gift of life to have chance to dive in noble job... be it a noble... life-saving... satisfaction... or other else... all depend on how one's hope to be... ...

It was a weekend... rest and relax... (>.<) before another round in out-patient attachment on next week ... and everyone... wishing yours to stay healthy all the times.. ... ...

NoGAPS 2011.. TO INFINITY AND BEYOND ...

Finally... NoGAPS 2011 had come to the end... a 5 days 4 nights event... which took place at UM this year...

Relieved... i was relieved... ... ~~ huuu~~... ... although the preparation for it was tiring... ...but... at the end... ... our effort growed... the event was successfully ran... no matter how tired before, it worth than a thousand when I saw all of us- high committee, AJK members n participants, cherished throughout the event... ...

I was totally glad... when all the things came to me smoothly... ... Deep inside my heart... I would like to say a billions of thank you to all the members of my bureau... without them, no matter how well was my arrangement and planning on certain things, it couldnt run that speedy n systematic... ... *Muackss*... LOVE you guys... (^_^)

Day 3, 11/6/2011: Community Outreach Programme (COP)... at Jinjang Utara, Selangor... although it was somewhat hard to help them, but I believed, when everyone of us contributed just a little bit of LOVE for them... the situation would change... "Endless love, endless hope..." poor was not a matter of disease... I just hope that whenever they need health care advice, they could seek help from many parties...

I prayed for them sincerely... ... wishing that their life was getting improved... sooner or later... may all the kids there... receiving proper education system.... they were innocent... lovely... looking at them... playing happily... n i wished that they could live healthy in the near future... Loving them... ...

Day 4, 12/6/2011: GALA night of NoGAPS, at depalma hotel, Ampang... it marked the end of the event.... Wowww... finally... ...

Above was a brief of NoGAPS 2011... actually.. I had made myself a document of it- NoGAPS 2011 which consisted of 45pages long... from the first day,25 June 2010, I took up the responsibility to become head of logistic bureau till the end of the event, 13 June 2011...
When I went through all that I had written... ... part of the experience... sweet memories... sad story sometimes... how did I deal with certain difficulties... at the end... I found out... I grew from a seed... and slowly turned to a little pinkish flower that I loved...
Thank you for having the chance of learning and facing all those thing in my life... and I was glad to become part of you in organizing the event... truly speaking... .... LOVING you all... ...

May the memories we shared together ~~ last forever and ever ~~

~~ TO INFINITY AND BEYOND ~~

That's... if the blogger allowed... I might be uploading the 45 pages long diary here... ...

Pre-NOGAPS...

3 days left before the event... It is a PRE- mood... pre-preparation... pre-finalizing... pre--- ....Brushing up of all the things...

N most importantly, try the very BesT on all the arrangement jobscope... not only own bureau of mine... logistic... but helping each other whenever possible... ... Never let the tiredness to lag us down... ... stay healthy all the times... immune system strength come from own power... if feeling of sick... just tell yourself... it was not the time for sickness to visit you... chased it away... ...

First time headed to Jinjang there today... promoting our Community Outreach Programme (COP)... it rained by the time we reached there... and having meeting with the ketua rumah panjang... n brief of the people there... Nothing to be afraid of... actually...

I knew it deep inside my heart... a sincerely help will never being cursed... I believed...
We would head there again for promotion of event on coming tuesday...

One little hope from mine.. May the deputy dean to approve a few of my requirement... so that the little obstacle can be solved... n it didnt burden my members to move all the things a long way whenever dining finished... ... hopefully... hope for a good news tomorrow after meeting with him... ...

All the BEST for my bureau... ... May NOGAPS be running smoothly, successfully, enjoyably, beneficially for each other, and memorably... ...

(^___^)... GOOD LUCK for all of us... ... ~~

We worked together... sharing tears n joy... ... that bring CoLourS to life... ...

蓝天... 白云...

这天... 我陪妈妈到巴刹去... ... 遇见了他的妈妈... ... 那时伯母在摊里忙着... 她似乎在找机会想和我谈话... 我给了她一个笑容... ...

她也给了我一个慈祥的笑容... 我的心却感到小小的抱歉... 只希望... 一笑胜于千言万语... 第一次发现伯母那慈祥的笑容... ... 伯母... 我希望你能好好地照顾自己... 也祝福你永远健康快乐... 虽然没有亲口告诉你... 但我会永远祝福你... 祝福一个慈祥的妈妈... ...

我在... 旋律中的小心悬... .... 歌词里的共鸣感...

"手放开-李圣杰"... "安静结束也是另一种对待~当眼泪流下来伤已超载~分开也是另一种明白~我给你最后的疼爱是手放开..." ... ...

那首... ... 我每天都爱听过一遍的动心曲- "情歌- 梁靜茹"... ... "陪我唱歌~清唱你的情歌~捨不得~ 短短副歌~心還熱著~也該告一段落~~生命宛如~靜靜的~相擁的河~ 永遠~天長地久... ..." 非凡感动的一首歌... .... 时光不可能倒流... 接受那份无法陪伴在我们身边的曾经... 伤痛让人成长...

渐渐地... 了解到... 两个人时学成熟... 一个人时学独立...

曾经遇见这么一遍文章 - "读书人" 与 "电视人"... ...

["读书人" 永远有把不完的妹.... 读不完的书... 听不完的音乐... 吃不完的美食...

"电视人" 的角度- 其实人生不是把多少妹.... 读多少书... 听多少音乐... 赚多少钱... 而是在有限的期间里经历的... 感受的每分每秒是不时精彩... 是不是有趣? 哪怕再有限再不完整... 我们都因为曾经的精彩... 幕后的付出... 悲伤的结局... ... 而成熟和长大... ...]

这些内容是我改写的个人意见... ...

不管自己是读书人或电视人... ... 我会凭着自己的心走... 宁静又安稳的走着... .... 走向那颗清晰的心悬...
我相信... 属于自己的东西.... 永远都会是自己的... 不属于自己的... 也要觉得庆幸... 因为它让你学会如何拿得起,放得下... ... 相识是一种缘分... 放下是一种尊重... ...

感情的世界... ... 虽然复杂... 但是... 我还会是那个... 做会喜欢单纯的自己... ... ...

The book - A bowl of Nsima...

Sometimes... It was of great pleasure.... pleasure of reading... pleasure of enjoying a cup of hot chocolate milk drink while reading a book... a book that brought you to their life... the second book that I finished reading up today... "A bowl of Nsima"... ...

I thought majority of us... having been told of the life in Africa... we knew that they were really living in devastated poor... famine everywhere... death... disease... But, how much did we know the true life of them?

How much could we feel about their pain? How poor they were? How dark was their sky? How depressed they were? How hopeless in their life?

I got to know them a little bit more... ... ya.. just a little bit more... ...

It was the book... the book that gave me a sense of depth sympathy and aroused my love for them... The story was truth life in Malawi, one of the town in Africa... content written up by a few volunteers who worked n helped up there...

Never thought that their condition was ten times worst as what I had imagined before...

It was in bi-language, I read both the language write-up, and this time, I preferred the chinese version...

I still could remember how the writer described the place they stayed... the meaning of poor to them... n the meaning of poor to us... ... .... how lucky we were, actually... every night, we have a warm bed awaiting for us... we have a huggable blanket... a cosy house... fan, TV, computer... ... if they had all those things, it meant a trillion for them ady... Do you realize it?

The child was having his "Nsima"... Nsima was the main source of food in their country... "A bowl of Nsima"... was a definite survival for them... ...

How innocence was his eye... I could feel it.. ... ...

A bowl of Nsima meant a lot in their life... ... but people around us... the world... kept on complaining... this and that...

Life sometimes fulled with ups and downs... but we could make it left and right... Have you tried for it? Before making any complaint, plz... having a second thought... just dont simply complain...

I got to know... when they had no food... they searched for insects to fill up their hungry...

"Insects"... esp ants... ... had become part of their meal everyday... ...

To be able to attend school and learn to write and draw, to them, is the biggest gift in their life...

I loved this photo so much... They reminded me of embracing knowledge... Knowledge was not gained in an easy way... ... It was the gift of life... ...

They enjoyed every meal presented to them...

Do you appreciate every meal you have? truly speaking... ...

"I felt blissful enough... to have my mum's food n soup every day n night... ...^^... " ... ...


It was another article from the book...

"一寸一寸的活... 一寸一寸的离开人间..." ... ...

deep sadness... ...

since a very young age... they were forced to work... not to earn money... but just for the purpose of survival... ...

Do you know that if they rejected to work, how bad would be the consequence they faced?

Another touching article from the book - "Infinity and beyond"...

"天荒地老"... ...

At the end, the child was died... He had saved his mother and his neighboursss... ... I was running into the story... ... the writer had wrote it so movable that... ... it made your tears to drop... ... ...

finally... I believed... ... i believed that the belief that I had when i was very young... n it appeared in the book..

"虽然这个世界很复杂... 但是我还会相信... 相信单纯的人存在着... 因为我是一个单纯的自己..."

It was another write-up... ... long story too... but I liked the story... ... a truth picture of "heart and soul"... ...

"Muacksss... " .... ....

~ The end~~

Friends, when you meet the book one day, do spare sometimes for it... believed me... ...

It was not a thousand that count but a little bit of love you gained that grow you up ...